Monday, November 7, 2011

New poem :)

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Sitting
and waiting
for tall-dark-
and-handsome,
curled in my corner
like a comma
in a run-on sentence
armchair,
punctuated.
By the lamplight
I watch painted 
butterflies flit over
the reflection
of a caffeinated atmosphere.
People-watching
people give glances
everywhere.
Next to them, away
from me, everywhere
there are eyes
dotted and
across teas 
words fly through steaming
white cups.
Sitting, and waiting,
and watching
the doors,
those transitional fillers
of the story 
I observe.
What does the story mean?
A group of couched
laptops ask, and before
the answer 
is divulged,
a new character enters
the discussion.
The chapter
ends, ushered out
by a dark and beautiful
man, who
takes me through
the end.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

On the Inadequacies of Language to Emotion, and the Complexities of Emotion

Love and anger are two passions in the same thread of emotion. They exist in the same world, as siblings or bickering lovers. Opposites attract and all that. Love and anger are more related than love and lust, despite the fact that love and lust get confused so much. Lust is a want, a desire. It can be manifestly expressed, physically and verbally. "I want you" can be embellished in so many ways but still boils down to the same basic meaning. Love and anger extend to the point of speechlessness; "more than words can describe" is a cliche for a reason. Language is not complex or clear enough to accurately describe what needs describing. It reminds me of Derrida's statement that language is unstable; words only meanings are the images that we prescribe to them. The word 'tree' means nothing without the image of a tree, but the tree doesn't cease to exist if the word disappears. In the case of love and anger, we have no concrete image with which to associate with the words. Emotions are such an abstract notion; each person feels them differently, at different levels and capacities. 
We can't expect to find one word to describe such complexities, but what if we could? I had a conversation about this the other with a wonderful group of young men. We discussed so much, but one thing that I was intrigued by was an idea that one day we may share a worldwide language. If that happens, what language do we choose? A language like French has the capacity to describe emotion much better than English, which, despite all of its complexities, is a simply descriptive language that focuses on comparative details that can't always necessarily express what needs to be expressed. Will a language evolve to the communicative needs of the user? Or are some things beyond what language has the capability to express? I think that part of why emotion is so powerful is because it is beyond language. It is variable in people, and complex in a way that can't always be described. It is so meaningful that even something as strong as language can't fully express it. As soon as language is stronger than the emotions is describes, the emotion is no longer that meaningful enigma it once was. It is not so powerful as to be beyond expression, undervaluing emotion because it can now be so easily said.